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真希望自己能够做到五蠹不侵的境界。每次警惕了自己的事、答应了自己要卸下的包袱，始终不能乖乖地将之放下。虽然这种期待是快乐的，但是沉默太久回首反省时，又有种说不出所以然的失落感，笑问一切是否值得时更是自责。放下，真的是一门学问。很多时候都会睹物思人、触景生情，沉溺在以往的欢笑，有时又会一直活在对未来计划的憧憬中，因之忘了把握当下。真是目光浅短，呜呼哀哉！>.<


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Mortals

Have actually been pondering on so many things lately. So many things, that I'm too lazy to write that down. Friendship, relationship, kinship, passion, all the mortal stuff in this world. So many things arose, that forced me into accepting the fact (again) that nothing's absolute. Even if it's long lost friend, that nowadays you don't find the passion in contacting each other anymore, it doesn't absolutely mean you hate him/her. Vice versa. Environment changes, forcing people to change. Everything seems so fragile.

That very pessimistic idea has once brought me into believing that it's best not to put in too much of passion into anything. The wisest thing to do is to keep a balance. Too much of pessimism makes someone passive, unambitious and dull. Be passionate in everything we do, yet not to let anything harm us. The only non-evolving theory is “evolution” itself. Don't be too depressed over something, at the same time, don't be overjoyed. Sounds like a philosopher, sounds like acting wise, but these are the points that I've been demanding myself to achieve this.

Life's been boring as well lately. Sigh. I know that actually depends on how wise I intend it to be, but, sigh, really have no idea since when I've turned into man with thousand worries. >.< (Sighing twice within a sentence doesn't sound like a good start though) Hope I can awesomely survive this month, before more “FUN” awaits!

But above all, I still believe in certain immortal things that I can still have faith in. Religion, which is a very subjective idea, that so long you believe in your own God's existence, He'll always be there; parents' love which is always the purest; and myself.