It has been 3 months since Year 4 started. I've been so preoccupied with other things that I didn't even have the liberty to sit down quietly and reflect what is going on. And now that the second posting is coming to its end, I reckon it's time to spend some time for this.
The hangover from year end holidays was intense this time. The older I grow, the more intense these hangovers become. As the clock starts ticking, 21st birthday is approaching. Adulthood is just around the corner. The unmerciful evolution of time constantly reminds me of the new responsibilities I shall bear with physical aging. I became so afraid to go to bed during holidays, thinking that days at home would just slip away day by day. I frantically tried to freeze time, but I couldn't.
And then the holidays ended. This time it ended with a rare outing with my parents on Mother's Day. At least some kind of memories before I return to my academic term, pretending that I'm not homesick; pretending that the friends I love so much in home town do not exist.
Thankfully, PSY posting had been a bliss. Apart from the super flexible schedule, I actually loved the posting itself. I just love talking I guess. No one in the ward planned for this to happen. It was the stress that they thought they couldn't resolve. They needed ears to listen to their stories. So imaginary voices and visions started kicking in as part of relief of the stress. To share their stories. But the longer they're trapped in the world, the more they are detached from reality. They cannot engage with the reality anymore. No. That wasn't the solution. You can allow yourself to be crazy and wild sometimes, give your heart a break, but in the end you must remember to stay headstrong and solve whatever problems you have in life. No one is born free in this world - everyone is bound to certain obligations in life to some extent. No man is an island, and everyone's bound to someone else. Just when you're on the verge of breaking down, think of your family members. For the good or bad things you do, they will be there to face the consequences with you, so be responsible with any decisions you make.
PSY posting came and left. Thankfully ENT posting has been interesting with real nice doctors, too. I'll miss the funny doctor who out of the blue made a very random funky smile at you, funky doctor as mad as mad hatter but smart like a genius, brotherly doctor who offered to help you with logbook and forbid you from calling him "doctor", doctor who acted indifferent but actually cared about his students (errr he probably did, let's assume he did). Not to forget the very friendly patients! Some of them had to wear tracheostomy tube and had phonation problems. But they still talked very patiently although they've been clerked by many students beforehand. May God bless them. The posting is a real short one, 3 weeks and it's coming to an end soon. I'm going to miss this posting, just like how I've missed PSY Department. I'll only go through these postings once and I'm glad they have brought good memories.
Lately I have been pondering on a few things too. The idea of friendship. In life we need many friends. A friend introduces new horizons into your life; tolerates your imperfection and respects them as part of you; reflects your weaknesses like a mirror and then teaches you patiently like a teacher; takes care of you and nags at your like a mother; guides you when you're a lost sheep; playfully fights with you like siblings but fights the one who bullied you like a real Spartan; builds your confidence like a guru. All these may not be the same person. It's okay anyway.
But it all boils down to a common point: friends must be empowering, and the effort should be mutual for it to be sustainable. To find one like this is hard, so why don't start being one? Plant a seed of passion, nurture it with patience, and time will bear the fruit of friendship. :)
01:26am
Good morning world. Goodnight, the very lost Yit. @@
