Of thunderous applause, whistles, fireworks, ushers and red carpet..
Say Hi! and Welcome! to my new virtual pet, Pete the Penguin! *grins.
He's now standing in the right column, excited to meet you fine people! He has infinite curiosity so his head follows your cursor all the time. As clumsy as Fergie's song, click on him more than 5 times and he'll fall into the water. Ha ha!
Hmm apart from kidnapping a penguin and exhibit it here I don't know how else to make my blog prettier. Now I'm jealous of those creative and "celik-IT" bloggers. While I'm still looking for a blogger guru or a hot IT boyfriend I wouldn't mind.. Let's just say I like to keep things simple.
Few things I wanna say in this entry:
1. I miss my primary school friend, the only person I could discuss literature with. But now that 10 years have passed, we're now in different country settings, blah blah blah, circumstances have shaped us into 2 different persons although we used to be on the same starting point. I hope this friendship is mutually treasured though.
2. I miss my high school friends. I treasure the laughter we used to share, the effort in making/choosing the presents for me, not forgetting the hugs we shared and the tears we shed on the day of graduation. Good friends (although best friends change with time, sad but true story) are meant to be remembered forever. I may not actively contact you frequently but when I'm alone reflecting things, I do think of you.
3. I love my course mates. Although walls start to build as years go by - for reasons as simple as time to reasons as complicated as organisational work and dissatisfaction - when I read back the birthday regards they wrote for my 19th in my 2nd year, I'm very much amused and appreciate your kind words at that point.
Among the most popular remarks about me in the birthday regards include me being outspoken, cheerful and an active debater. Yea I was once a busy but nonetheless happy person because I had so much jokes leftover in my brain to laugh at - mind you I'm one with abundant laugh receptors so I can still laugh so hard at a particular joke days after the last training. I hope I won't lose my humorous touch even after being apart from these cool and funny bunch of debaters. So here goes point #4.
4. I miss the times being so active in debate, never missing out any important occasions and get-together. This past year I've been missing out tournaments, training and even simple parties for reasons ranging from being in Tg Karang, stuck in busy posting, on holidays, etc. Pffffft. Reflecting back, now I'm glad at least I gave my support for training in Year 1 and helped out training juniors in Year 2, when life was young and gay and I could still have fun. :/ At least. I'm guilty for being such coward and so-not-persistent, but I've been away for way too long I now feel awkward for existing in tournament (good example being Avicenna Debate but luckily the juniors are good enough not to make me feel it) and even training in future. Despite all that complicated emotions, of course if the timing is right I'd absolutely and shamelessly chip in and say, "Whaddup people!" :P
5. I miss the AMSA moments, too. I used to drop the idea of joining AMSA in early 1st year because I thought it sounded too cool that I might not be on par with the members. (contradiction because I joined debate? But I thought of debate as a channel of personal development while AMSA is a group work, so big chance of me destroying the team if I'm a hopeless dumbo) Anyhow I still impudently crashed into the team in 2nd year (yea that's so like me), not knowing this is yet another platform where I improved so much and had fun organising events. On top of all, I'm glad I grabbed the one chance to present a paper in an international setting. Since it is one realistic and cruel organisation that you can't stay for forever, it's the junior's empire now and I hope they cherish the days.
6. I'm starting to miss my home so, so much despite the fact I'm at home. And I'm loving that moments of serenity now that my parents are over the whatever-issue-which-bothered-them-for-many-years-but-refused-to-apologise-to-each-other. I think this time the serenity will be for long, so I've grown to love the house, home and family even, even more. *hearts.
With so many things to miss about in my life..
I feel blessed. =)
